Truly, when I had just got used to the state of equinimity, it got dragged out like a rug from under my feet. No, I can't go into details, mostly as it would bore you, but also, I think I kinda behaved quite badly too. The good old, 'well I am mentally ill card", does not excuse all types of behaviour.
The past, as I have said before, is as it is, and has, in some way, to be accepted for being what it is. That is not to say that past hurts do not continue to hurt, but they hurt less if you kinda get that no amount of intelligent reasoning is going to make them any different.
Right now though, hurts which happen do trigger awful reminders of the past, and that reader, is what happened. A small event triggered, what is called in the profession I am a patient of, a psychotic episode.
I am glad it is over, it was scary. Feel nothing today, a blessed relief.
Speak soon, keep warm.
Much love x
1 comment:
Okay, hun, I will be here. Take care of yourself and I look forward to seeing you soon.
Susan x
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